This peace

I was wresting with an idea last night of how people do not always satisfy my needs and my desires.. I was getting worked up about it that certain people just fail at that in my life. And then I thought wow, I am being so selfish- Just thinking about myself.. and then this amazing revelation came on me! Jesus told me that if I have Him and if I rest in His love and acceptance and fulfillment, why will I ever need to look to people to be fulfilled? I do not feel like I have to be accepted or understood by people.. God already does that. So I've been resting in this.. just knowing that I do not have to gain the understanding of people around me, I don't even have to loved by people. I am loved by Jesus and I am accepted by Him! So now instead of putting pressure on people to satisfy my needs, I know I can rely on my God to satisfy them! All my life I have been told that God will satisfy the deepest desires of your heart and we will always accept me, but it was only in my head, not my heart. I didn't fully understand it. But now I do understand it! And now I have confidence in my future marriage that it will work! I will not have to gain acceptance and love from my husband. I will not have to gain anything from him to feel good about myself. My acceptance and love will be rooted in something much more strong and consistent: Jesus Christ. So I am excited about the future that God has for me. To me, being in love with Jesus and accepted by him sounds amazing! It sounds like a dream which I can actually have! But now with this new understanding of my future marriage, I know that it will be just an added blessing, a delicious treat! Not only will I have a loving Saviour and Lord that I can come to at any point, I also will have a loving husband who is rooted in God and growing. So I know that in His timing He will bring the right guy into my life... But right now I have an even better relationship to be developing, an even more amazing Romancer who will satisfy my every desire. So I have peace about this stage of my life.. It's all in God's timing. But I am excited for my life with my future husband, but even more excited about growing continuously in Christ. Right now He is the one I need to be pursuing, because without His will nothing good will happen.. Only through growing in Him can I be the person He wants me to be.